| Thursday, March 20th, 2003 |
| 3:14 am |
only at the front desk...
so some guy just called here asking for a girls number and started hitting on me and asking me all these questions. if i had a boyfriend, and that we should go out on sunday. i was like whatver. and then he was like ok well i am coming over to meet you. i was like whatver, this guy is so drunk and it was just funny but now it is creepy. he is supposedly coming over here soon so we will see. i am getting kind of freaked out. oh well.. here is the life at the front desk.. |
| Saturday, February 15th, 2003 |
| 1:20 pm |
"maybe there really is someone out there for everyone"
well i am surprised to say that i had a good valentines day... actually i had a great valentines day. it was more then i asked for and much more then i deserved, actually nevermind, i do think that i deserved it. why is it so hard for me to belive that someone might actually be interested in me? well last night i set that i aside and had a great time. sure, we might not get married but we are having fun while it lasts. i truly dont think that i have bene this happy in a long time, and you know what? it feels really good. its like i am a whole new person. well i have to go back to the conference now but i hope that everyone else had a great day ysterday, and remember that if i can ever like vday so can you. lauren :) |
| Saturday, February 8th, 2003 |
| 3:00 pm |
remember to always live life to its fullest......
*what can i say about nick damon? well for starters, he was one of the first people to make me feel truly comfortable in apo. he had a great sense of humor and would be the first to make you laugh in a bad situation. he is one of the only people who has ever gotten me out on a dance floor and i enjoyed myself. he taught me a whole new meaning to "bump and grind". he was one of those people who was determined to make a difference in the world, and even though he never made to new zealand... i hope he realizes that he has made such a difference on every path that he has already traveled down. i know that it is hard to realize right now, why he is no longer with us, when he had so many great things in front of him, but we just need to put trust in those above us. "everything happens for a reason". nick will be truly missed and always remember but if we take anything from this experience, it might be... live today as if it is your last becuase you never know when it may be. nick we love you and we will see you soon... when we are all in a better place in God's name.. amen |
| Thursday, December 26th, 2002 |
| 12:12 pm |
"God speed little man, sweet dreams little man...."
"MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT" i hope that everyone had a good day yesterday, mine went surprisingly well considering the circumstances. i have yet to celebrate at my mom's house or with my mom's family so i am not even close to being done. welli am off to chirstmas at emily's. i love this time of year. sometimes i really do feel like i am part of a second family... THANK YOU! lauren :) |
| Sunday, November 17th, 2002 |
| 2:24 pm |
"Smile, its a simple way to spread God's love"
why is it just when i think that things can change and are , and that people support me in the decisions that i choose to make in life.. i am proved to be wrong once again. is it so hard for people to be happy for me and all of me? all i wanted was some people there to support me in a huge life decision. if you didnt want ot be there even the slightest bit, then you shouldnt have come. it meant a lot to have you there but it would have meant more to be if i felt you went bc you wanted to not bc you felt you had to. why is it that you cant just excpet that fact that we are differnt and not dwell on it. why do you have to make comments? why cant you just keep your mouth shut? if you dont agree.. that is fine but keep it to yourslef. you have no idea how hard this whole thing has been and how much i have had to overcome thorugh out it all. it would have been alot easier if you would have been there for me but even easier if you wouldnt have said anything as compared to what you did say. if you want to say something say it to ME! not the whole internet world. i am so sick of stupid away messages or profiles... they are your profiles.. so why are they about me? do you n ot realize that i read them too? i thought we were friends? well if we were you would know that i wouldnt like that and you would stop ..but instead they continue. i thought they might stop after you witnessed a part of what ia m going through but i was wrong.. it still persists. there are very limted groups in my life; family and friends are two of them. when my family fails me.. i expect to go to my friends but who do i go to when they fail you too? i dont know what else ot say.. i can pray that things willl change but will it be a waste of time.. who knows ~me |
| Tuesday, October 29th, 2002 |
| 2:39 pm |
"if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it"
wow! so it has been so long since i updated this thing, there just doesnt seem to be any time anymore. things have been going good. very hectic and i am so stressed out but other than that.. ok. i shceduled this morning for spring classes and they were all full, so i have to go get bump cards from everyone in the world. i have my doctors appt on thurs at the hospital at 7am... i cant belive it is that early but got to do what you got to do. - i cant think of anythigng else right now.. my mind is wondering so i better go.. talk to you guys later lauren :) |
| Wednesday, October 9th, 2002 |
| 2:29 am |
"if you died tomorrow, would everyone you love know it?"
things have been crazy aruond here but when arent they? i have been thinking about a lot of things lately and i need them to get straightened out soon before i have a nervous breakdown. this week is homecomiing and it has been oodles of fun.. Go CMU! i am officially a site leader for alternative spring break . we are going to colorada to work with drug addiction and alcohol abuse. i am so excited, i cant wait. well i am at work right now, and i need to get some work done so i will talk to you gals later.. bye :) |
| Friday, October 4th, 2002 |
| 3:41 am |
"to love someone is to see the face of God"
soi know that i never writ ein this thing but i never know what to say bc i never know what ia m feeling.. well right now i am frustrated and confused and stressed and tired. i am not doing too well in school, well by my standards but i am conpensating that with getting involved a lot which is what i want but i feel that there are very select poeple that are happy for me. isnt that the most importnatthing? to make sure that i am having a good time doing things that i love to do? well then why am i constantly getting shit from people? i am sory that i dont have a million hours to spend with you or even 5 for that matter but things will settle down and i will have time. and if you still lived in towers and were involed liek you wanted to be instead of baling on me then you would be busy too and wouldunderstnad what iam going though. i knw that once you move off campus you just dont care anymore but i still love on campus and i still do care so back off. my feelings are very discombabulated right now and i dont know what to do. i am waiting for god to send me a sign on what to do but it hasnt happend yet so i all i can do it wait. this weekend i am going away on a site leader retreat which i have been looking forward to for so long and i have worked really hard to achieve and i am so excited but i dont feel that my excited is shared by others. i heard some relaly wback news tonight about someone whom i have known for a really long time. so if any of you know katie pepper or have even heard of her or even if you havent , please pray for her mom. she is really sick right now and she really needs as many people praying for her righht now.. remmeber "miracles happen everyday" and i think that it is her turn. that is it for now.. hope everyone is doing well lauren :) |
| Friday, September 27th, 2002 |
| 12:18 am |
close my eyes jsut to see you and the way you smile....
well things have been good but hectic.. as usual. i am at state right now visiting iwth emily and tyler and jay is here too from northern. it is a good reunion. anywyas.. i am getting really involved in my frat.. which is a lot of fun but taking u p alot of time. not too much else is new.. i am goin ghome for the weekend bc my cousin is getting married. jairus is going iwht me an di am excited bc i havent seen him in a long time.. i miss him. things are good though. well i gtg ty and jay are leaving now so i better say goodbye... see ya lauren :) |
| Wednesday, September 4th, 2002 |
| 2:27 am |
hola seniorita... espanol.. SUCKS!!!
i am so sick of everything.. i dont knwo what is wrong with me but i almost started crying today at work bc we had to switch doors that we were working at and i didnt even have to work them... i dont know. i think that i am pmsing or something but i am really stressed out. i have to work this weekend and i really dont want to bc i found out taht a couple of people up here are having parties and a couple of people might be comig up this weekend bc it is CMU and YOu day on saturday... i have got to get the night off. well i am going to go back to studying now.. bc that is all that i do. got to go.. bye lauren :) |
| Tuesday, September 3rd, 2002 |
| 7:08 pm |
and... im back
well this weekend was much needed. i went up norht to my grandma's cottage on thursday with jairus and my sister. jairus stayed up there until saturday and then my paretns cam eup. we didnt really do anythign but it was awesome. i missed him os much. this whole situation is going ot be really hard but i think we can do it. well i am suposed to be doing homework righ tnow so.. oh yea.. first week of school is officially over.. THANK GOD! i cant belive what i went through but o well. anyways, i hope everyone is enjoying there first or second year.. either way, make it worthwhile... lauren :) |
| Tuesday, August 27th, 2002 |
| 10:16 am |
and all you wanted was somebody who cares...
well today is my first day of school... i have yet to go to a class because... thats right... i dont start until 1... i have so much to do today and i cant figure out the time to do it.. btu i will, you know me.. off to class now wish me luck lauren :) |
| Friday, August 23rd, 2002 |
| 3:21 am |
im back....
well i move into my new room today and proceeded it by wokring 12 hours at hte desk. i really at a workaholic but what other choice do i have. well it feels weird to be back in towers and not have everyone here. i miss ang a lot and having ben and adam and nick right below me was way cool and they arent there anymore.. i dont know what to do. and i feel like i am the only one of my friends left in towers that isnt an RA. this sucks.. and i miss jairus so much. he is sick and i wish that i could be there for him bt i cant and i feel like a horrible gf.. but i hope that he atleast knows that i am thinking about him. well i shold probably go to bed.. i just got off work and i am way tired. i hope that everyone is having a good start ot the new year.. my new info" 506 Cobb w. Broomfield Mt. pleasant, MI 48858 room # 989-774-6061 cell # 248-830-1896 lauren :) |
| Monday, August 19th, 2002 |
| 1:59 pm |
oh boy oh boy
so last night i was hanging out with jairus and he told me that he went into livejournal and read mine... i guess my horrible writing has gotten the worst of me bc he read something that said that opposite of what i meant. well we talked about it and figured it all out. florida was awesome. i got to hold so many turtles, it was amaizing. it was extremely hot though but i got a good tan so it was worht it. i leave on wenesday to go back to school and that it very sad. actually i cant quite figure out if i am sad or not. part of me want to go back and part of me wants to stay.. i jsut dont know which part is bigger. some things that have recently happend make me think that part is bigger but who knows.. well got ot go.. good luck everyoone.. love you all lauren :) |
| Friday, August 9th, 2002 |
| 1:42 pm |
Sea turtles here i come.....
well today is the day. i leave to go to florida. well actually i dont leave for florida until tomm but i am driving up to mt. pleasant today so that i dont have to at the butt crack of dawn tomm morning. i am excited but i am going ot miss a few people a lot. plus, i know that when i get back i will have very short time before i leave for school and that kind of scares me too. i think that we can make it if we really BOTH try but that is exactly what i am afraid WONT happen. well i wont know until i know so.. no use dwelling over it right now. well i am work righ tnow so i better go but i just wanted to say.. SO LONG, FARE WELL... BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH... have fun at school everyone an di will talk to you later lauren :) |
| Friday, August 2nd, 2002 |
| 12:48 pm |
every new beginning comes with some other beginnings end...
well things have been ok lately. i am done working at the restaurant but they dont know that yet.. oopss :).. i am getting ready to go to florida... actually i am supposed to be getting ready to go to florida but it isnt working too well. i will find time eventualll, i dotn really have much of a choice. well i am at work right now so i better go.. oh yea!! i got a cell phone.. so if you ever feel like giving me a call or chatting or whatver.. please do.. the number is 248-830-1896.. see you guys.. lauren :) |
| Friday, July 26th, 2002 |
| 1:18 pm |
and on and on and on and on
well nothing new really with my life. i went camping for a couple of days with my family and then came back a little early and had a party but that is about it. not long tell school starts again. i cant figure out if i am excited or not. there is a definte pro and con list.. maybe i should write it out and then i will let you know well i am at work right now but i will talk to you later lauren :) p.s for any one that was in band.. emily and allison and i went to joe's crab shack last night and guess who was working there??? GLEN!!!!! we asked him for some crotch but he said they were fresh out.. j/k well thought you might want to know, maybe you could go visit him. hgahaha |
| Friday, July 19th, 2002 |
| 11:31 am |
shoot for the moon, and if you dont make it there you will still be amoung the stars
everything is good... i cant really complain about anything. well, i could but i wont bc no one wants to hear it. - jairus and i are doing really well this time.. i cant bellive how little time we have left though but with a little hard work from both of us and i really think that it could work. - my long lost friend is talking to me again. i am really glad that she realized we can still be friends. she even gave me a hug after she came to visit me at work yesterday. that just made my day. i was so excited. :) - things seem to be falling right into place.. too bad this dream is almost over. i have 2 weeks left and then i leave. that is like no time at all. i cant belive that summer is like almost over. man did it ever fly by. but it was fun. well i am work right now so i better go talkt o you guys later bye :) lauren |
| Thursday, July 11th, 2002 |
| 12:42 pm |
im 6 feet from the edge and i thinking.......
last night emily and i hung out and it was a lot of fun. first of all we worked together all night so you would think that we would have been sick of each other, but we werent. however, there is a rumor going on at work that we are lesbians: wonder how that started? anyways so we went to go get coffee after work and just talked about things, it was really nice. lately i have been thinking a lot about how lucky i am that i have people that i can really and trully talk to about things that are importnat. i dont mean that bullshit things (even though that helps too) i mean that things are are really important in life. an di am even luckier bc i have a few people: 2 huge helps to me life: THANK YOU EMILY AND ALLISON: I LOVE YOU BOTH!! - well know i am at work and i jsut went and played tennis with my cousin and it was a lot of fun but man to i suck. that is one sport that everyone should be happy that i never picked up or wanted to start. i was hopeless. but he is starting lessons soon so maybe he can teach me a thing or two. better go talk to you soon lauren :) |
| Tuesday, July 9th, 2002 |
| 1:42 pm |
what is wrong
so is anyone else having trouble seeing more than like 3 entries at a time on this thing? i dont knwo why mine is being like that but o well. so things are good. i am so tired lately but surprisingly it isnt that bad being back at work. dont get me wrong, i wish i was still on vacation but it is good to be making money again. plus, i was looking at the calendar and we really dont have that much time left.. that is sad but i do miss everyone at school and it will be good to see them again. well.. i am at work and i dont have much else to say right now. guess i will talk to you later.. bye guys lauren :) |
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